This world is not my home

55 pounds down. Feeling like a boss

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 11:54:46 -0400

55 pounds down. Feeling like a boss

Life

Fri, 17 Feb 2012 08:44:45 -0500

I figured I should give people an update on my life. Saying that I am doing well is not enough. I am great, life is amazing. God is showing me who I need to be and I agree with him. So far this year, my new years resolution has gone according to plan. i have lost 35 pounds since January first. I have an amazing guy in my life who I am in love with and gave me an amazing Valentine’s gift and even better, he has a heart after God. He does not pressure me to do anything I don’t want to and we have both agreed to wait until we are married to have sex. My friends are awesome and help me with everything I struggle with. I am not sure what I did to have God bless my life in such a great way, but I thank Him for it. I hope everyone else feels as great as I do.

One day, I will go here

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 23:14:59 -0500

One day, I will go here

One day.

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 22:18:41 -0500

One day.

Farva

Wed, 12 Oct 2011 11:08:39 -0400

Farva

Today is R U OK day,It's for Suicide Awareness. So let me ask you, are U ok? Reblog if you're always here for your followers.

Thu, 15 Sep 2011 14:19:19 -0400

This is the first time I have seen this footage of New York. I...

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 13:33:29 -0400

This is the first time I have seen this footage of New York. I wouldn’t know what to do

I can’t believe some people are okay with this. Some...

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 13:32:35 -0400

I can’t believe some people are okay with this. Some people who I know say this is a good thing. I can’t hold back tears

Time Consuming

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 12:07:21 -0400

Are you highly attracted to anyone right now?
I guess so.

Is it easier to pretend everything’s okay for you?
Yeah. Sometimes being fake makes things better

If someone looked ON your bed, what would they find?
Too much stuff for one bed

Last male to take off your pants?
Men know better than to touch me

1 being the worst, 10 being the best. Rate your life.
7

The last person you kissed says they want you to be theirs. You say?
I haven’t had my first kiss yet sooo….

Are you happy where you are right now, relationship- wise?
Yeah, being single is fun.

The person you fell hardest for, texts you at 4 am saying “come outside” ?
Go away! I want to sleep at 4 am

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
Yes.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
I always have a reason to smile

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
I have class at 8 am

Would you kiss someone on a dare?
No.

Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the person you like?
Yes, but I wouldn’t show any emotion

Is there anyone you wouldn’t mind punching in the face now?
Several people actually.

How old was the last person you kissed ?
I don’t kiss people…they have cooties.

Have you ever seen the last person you kissed without a shirt on?
No? why is everything centered around kissing?

Ever wanted something, got it, and then no longer wanted it?
Yes.

The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3am, would you go?
I would do that for anyone, especially if I really like them.

Was the last time your heart pounded like crazy for a good or bad reason?
Yesterday

Is there someone you just can’t imagine your life without?
A lot of people

How was your day?
It has only just begun.

Ever punched somebody in the face because of someone you loved?
Not yet

Does it annoy you when people type like they’re ghetto?
Yes.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
Yes.

If you could plant a tree, what would you want to grow on it?
Oranges.

Are you emotional?
When I choose to be.

Ever had your heart broken?
Several times

Think back to April, how was your love life then?
Non existant kind of like it is now.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?
duh.

Do you remember names or faces better?
Faces.

If someone is interested in you right now, how should they tell you?
Straight up tell me you like me. The worst thing I could say is no.

Can you commit to one person?
Yes.

Do you miss your past?
I miss being a child and not caring

Are any of your friends virgins?
I think so. I am.

Do you hate when people call you when you’re sleeping?
YES.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Yes, but it is difficult

Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?
having sex, that is not as bad in my opinion considering my mom is okay with it

Have you ever laid on a bed and stayed there for no reason at all?
yep

What is the oldest anyone has ever assumed you are? Was it way off?
25, yes because at the time I was 16

Do you typically enjoy long or short surveys?
Idc.

Name something green?
Link’s tunic in Zelda

What were you doing before you sat down at the computer?
Smoking.

Would you rather keep peace, or prove your point?
Prove my point

So I have to know, what are your thoughts on 2012?
Whatever
Do you say ‘Twenty-Twelve’, or ‘Two Thousand And Twelve’?
2012.
Do you think you’re a unique person? Or just someone in the crowd?
no

Last person you hugged?
my sister

Last person you hung out with?
Chris.

Last person to text?
Jen

Last person to call?
Jen P.

If you had to choose someone to sleep next to you every night, and wake up to, who would it be?
My catDo you look decent when you wake up?
Yeah.

Are you happy?
Sure.

Can you call your ex on the phone without it being awkward?

probably

I'm not a gaming system

Mon, 29 Aug 2011 11:50:58 -0400

Don’t try to play me. I will send you to the plains of Oblivion.

This is my husband Christian. He is the guitarist for Inveritas...

Sun, 28 Aug 2011 23:16:19 -0400

This is my husband Christian. He is the guitarist for Inveritas and he is the best husband in the world. He has talent you would not believe and a sense of humor you would love. Sometimes he beats me but it’s okay…jk. He is currently at Georgia Tech being a boss and I miss him very much. Please follow Inveritas on tumblr and on facebook to show your support. Thank you guys so much.

This is my little brother Ian. he is not little, he is 6’3...

Sun, 28 Aug 2011 23:10:42 -0400

This is my little brother Ian. he is not little, he is 6’3 but he is my baby bro. His band Inveritas needs support. They are a great band and I would appreciate if anyone would help support them by following them on tumblr. He is the best bro ever.

This is one of my dearest friends, Hunter Gwin. His band...

Sun, 28 Aug 2011 23:00:13 -0400

This is one of my dearest friends, Hunter Gwin. His band Inveritas is phenomenal. Like them on facebook and follow them on tumblr. You will not regret it.

Reblog if you believe in God.

Mon, 22 Aug 2011 11:08:23 -0400

Boys are still Stupid

Mon, 22 Aug 2011 09:42:45 -0400

I guess I just have to be patient till the right one comes along.

YES

Fri, 19 Aug 2011 11:42:36 -0400

YES

Cheaters never win and winners never cheat.

Wed, 03 Aug 2011 18:22:47 -0400

I had a Dream the other day

Tue, 19 Jul 2011 19:45:00 -0400

I had this crazy dream the other night. I would as far as to say it was the best dream I have ever had in my existence. I dreamt that I had a child, I know what people are thinking, “Big deal, it will happen when you get married and blah blah blah…” but it’s different for me. It is different when you are told by a doctor “because of your medical history, it is very unlikely for you to have kids.” So when I had this dream that I had a son with beautiful green eyes, hair as black as the midnight sky, and skin as white and pure as God’s forgiveness, I felt joy. I was happy in that dream. I loved him as if it were real life…even when I woke up from my slumber, I loved him. I felt like it was real, I didn’t want to ever wake up. I go to sleep most nights wanting to have the dream again, longing to be able to hold my child in my arms just for the short amount of time that I sleep at night. Even more amazing, my child’s name was Link. When the dream occured, he looked to be around the age of 5 or 6. I had him dressed in an outfit that could have been worn in the 1940’s. What makes the dream even stranger, is that my child, Link, was given to me by God. I was a virgin in my dream(I am now too, but this was a dream).

Because of this dream, I have hope and faith. I have faith that with enough prayer, when I get married, I will be able to have kids with whoever will be my husband. I believe God gave me that dream, maybe to give me hope. To help me look forward to my future. I have faith in God now more than I have ever had.

Typical day in my life

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 22:40:14 -0400

All I have been doing over the past few weeks of summer is go to work, hang out with friends, go swimming at absurd times, and play Oblivion or AC. I find this perfectly acceptable.

You did this to me...

Thu, 26 May 2011 22:50:31 -0400

Did you ever think of what would happen after you hurt me like that? No. You were the cause of my destruction, my loss of innocence, my feeling of not being wanted.

I continue to say you did this to me, however I did this to myself.

I thought I could trust you. I thought I was invincible and couldn’t get hurt by another person.
why me?
what lesson was I supposed to learn?
what did you want me to know?
Why this much pain?
I have no answers, only the continuous lines of questions and complaints.

You are just another boy…not even a man…I can do better than you. He has better men for me than you…